David Leevers, 2000
Written after spending a day walking to and from a waterfall in the Spanish Sierra Nevada with a group from the alternative holiday centre 'Cortijo Romero'.
With apologies to "Being John Malkovich", a movie in which people pay $200 to slide down a tunnel that starts at floor 7.5 of a Manhattan skyscraper and ends in the centre of consciousness of John Malkovich's brain. After a 15 minute experience they are ejected and fall out of the sky on to the side of a highway near Hoboken NJ with views across to Manhattan.
Life-size self-portraits of some members of the group
Paying the token,
making ones way to the waiting room of low equity
where the day-to-day shell of survival
is eased off by unnatural group processes.
as a snail without a shell,
an executive without a suit,
an analyst without a couch,
in a group shell-on-wheels to the entry point.
Next sliding down the wetware artery path
through the cortex of Sier Nevada
to the pool of consciousness,
just behind the centre of visual flow.
Here, protected but alien,
there is time to wait for the eternal moment
(within the personal quarter of an hour)
Each vision is different;
backwards into the black hole of the cut-back undercliff
- a temporary haven from the downward stream of seratonin,
sideways into inevitable tumblings as handhold is lost
- a turmoil of L-dopa,
forwards into the torrent of streaming
or upwards, provoking clash of Egos
- self and Sier.
Overbearing all is the super-ego of the upper pool,
And the underwearbaring forces of its own super waterfall.
A two-level hierarchy of pools,
enough to extrapolate an infinity of higher consciousnesses,
incarnating upwards to the eternal snowy peak of Mount Kailas.
Now looking forwards through the streaming tears of Sier,
grinding him down through millennia
as liquid lady of lakes has her way with him.
From Rocky to rockund,
from the jagged sharpness of transparency
to the slippery smoothness of Machiavalency
And then, quietly, closure is sensed, ejection.
Into the relentless pounding of those thundering tears.
Then jacuzzied into momentary well-being by the energy of effervescence.
Finally reconceived down the virtual vein,
the channel of rocks and flow.
Initially an eel-like fetus,
eloinging between the rocks,
meandering across the shallows,
hurrying over rapids,
and growing by stretch-force of whirlpools
till, in a moment,
water baby is reconstituted
and falls back
with a bump,
at the side
of the Hoboken Highway.
Back to (virtual) reality